Sideways

Today I’m going to cry. Sometimes I wonder why I’m alive. It’s not a call for help, it’s not suicidal thoughts.. just wondering what I’m good for? Wondering why I’m on this earth. Sometimes I just don’t know.

Today was a hard day, I don’t know how adults make it look so easy. I’m 24 and living is still the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Deep breaths, alcohol, sleep deprivation? Teach me your ways.

Do you ever have days when you’re drowning? No light in sight? That’s me lately. I can’t get out of the darkness and it’s scary. How do you fight when you feel like flying?

Sigh. Maybe one day it will be easier.

Quote: Love your parents. We are so busy growing up, we often forget they are also growing old. – Unknown

Song: 🎤🎧 Sideways – Wrabel

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Welcome to my journey!

Hi folks,

I want to be anonymous for now (as anonymous as anonymous can be online!) until I feel comfortable expressing my thoughts and feelings as myself. I will be changing names for my stories so no other identities are compromised.

I’m 24 and from a small midwestern town. I am married to a wonderful man named Nate. Nate and I have a peculiar relationship. He is from the UK and I’m from the USA. We met online in 2011 and have been dating since 2012. We met in person in 2015 (that story will come!) and the rest is history. We got married in 2016.

In this blog, I plan on discussing my frustrations, thoughts, and ways to help myself become a better person. I understand these words may never be read but that’s okay. This blog is focused on my own mental health.

At the end of every post, I will include a quote, song and question for you! Feel free to comment and interact with each other.

I love when people that have been through Hell walk out of the flames carrying buckets of water for those still consumed by the fire. – Stephanie Sparkles

Song: Ansel Elgort – Thief 🎤🎧

Do you ever resist or back away from stating your true opinion about something online because you are afraid what others think? Why do you care?

Thank you for reading! Stay tuned. ❤️